the wings of racing shadows |Nausher Banaji

1.
when it is evening it will be fair weather
for the sky is red
when it is morning it will be foul weather
for the sky is red
you can discern the face of the sky
but you cannot discern the signs of the times
sweet child in time
you’ll see the light
from stone to spirit
from naked to night
-Nausher

2.
You follow the taillights in the sky
starting and ending
fading down pillared corridors into another world
away from the trivial the inane the babble the trash
away from life’s symmetry of madness
for whoever will save his life shall lose it
and whoever loses his life will find it-Nausher

3.
that we knew the day would pass
that the night we lived would never last
the future is buried in the past
that you let the living follow the living
and you let the dead bury their dead-Nausher

4.
For those you burnt and those you forgave
Too late you’ve learnt you’re only a slave
So the last shall be first , and the first last
For many be called, but few are chosen
The wind carries voices but theres nobody there
The bush is burning but the mountain is bare-Nausher

5.
What went you out in the wilderness to see
A reed shaken in the wind
Through tunnels and doors
You ached you’d be free,
The doors lead to walls
And the labyrinth leads to me-Nausher

6.
Of whom do the kings of the earth take custom or tribute
Of their children or of strangers
The night is done
Gone with the wind of the first sun
Dreams on ice, the river crossed twice
I want to be alone with me
A transparent layer in history
Then are the children free-Nausher

7.
the stone the builders rejected
has become the head of the corner
here comes the shadow softly over your skin
light shades tomorrow as yesterday begins
you thought you felt your breath wafting over the water
and your fears they rustled through distant laughter
you sat there a while scanning the miles
free child of beauty born out of a caged reptile- Nausher

8.
where i go you cannot come
and where i go you know
darkling you walked into the night
staring blind wrong from right
sweating palms clutching a shadows hand
you only survive because you dont understand-Nausher

9
You were not cut off before the darkness
Neither have you covered the darkness from my face
Their voices reach you but the words are inane,
You see in their eyes your world is insane,
You wish you could fly but dreams cloud the sky,
The rain in your brain is washing them dry -Nausher

10.
The water wears out the mountain
And time wears out the skin
You see yourself naked on the shifting sand
A dream and a memory in each hand
– Nausher

11.
Divide the waters from the waters
Divide the light from the darkness
And divide the beast from man
You laughed you are so clever
You are a walker on the waves
But your eyes are searching inwards
Seeking shadows in light caves
You see queens give birth to lizards
And slaves give birth to slaves-Nausher

12.
You said when you turn the corner
You will no longer see
You’ll be loved or you’ll be hated
For your words and for your dreams
You heard the lie in my sighs
You let me enter your veins
You gave me your eyes
So i could see my own chains, Nausher

13.
There is a vein for silver, and a place for gold
Iron out of earth, and brass out of stone
Darkness oozes shadows onto her skin
In her hands she measures the weight of the wind
There is a stranger in my head screaming naked in the rain
My mind is clear, he says, but my soul is insane- Nausher

14.
They dwell in the cliffs of the valleys,
Among the bushes they bray, under the nettles they gather
My harp is turned to mourning
My organ into the voice of them that weep
Have we seen enough, have we seen too much
Are we guided by stars,maimed by a touch
Are we blinded by truth, enlightened by a lie
The die is cast in the blink of an eye – Nausher

15.
I had many a thing to write
But i had not the words to write them
At the other side of my dreams I waited
Nothing remembered nothing regretted
Arches to ashes, doors to dust
Blood resembles the colour of rust-Nausher

16.
In the beginning there is the word and word is on your tongue
And your heart will beat in places the seers have wailed in song
All the graven images beaten into pieces
Dreams on pyres nightmares on fire
All the idols desolate in the white light
Through tunnels and doors
You ached you’d be free,
The doors lead to walls
And the labyrinth leads to me – Nausher

17.
You know how to be abased, you know how to abound
You are satiated, you are starving
You are the alpha, and the omega
Here you are on the blue mountain,
Halfway up, halfway down,
Stranded and exiled, looking out to sea,
Holding onto misplaced gods
And what you might have been- Nausher

18.
Until the day breaks, until the shadows flee again
I will get me to the mountain of Myrrh
A fountain of gardens, a well of living waters
I sleep but my heart awakes
For my head is filled with dew
And my locks with the drops of the night
Sometimes I wish I could fly
But where can I go
Where can I hide
So my shadow wont find me
Everything I am fleeing
Is right here inside me.Nausher

19.
For precept must be upon precept
precept upon precept
Line upon line
Line upon line
Here a little, and there a little
That they might go and fall backward
And be broken, and snared, and taken
This is the rest wherewith you cause the weary to rest
You ran onto the proverbial sword
What have you done outliving your gods – Nausher

20
For the terrible one is brought to naught
They murmur mud upon his name
The burden of the beasts plough into the land of trouble
Your strength is to sit still in shame
You lie softly now
All gussied up for the ride
Energy de-energized
Lifetimes processed
Into a single moment
Of endless finality- Nausher

21.
You will be the shadow of a great rock in a weary land
A covert from the tempest, rivers of water midst perennial sand
And the eyes of them that see are dim
The ears of them that hear are muffled
For those you burnt and those you forgave
Too late you’ve learnt you’re only a slave
The wind carries voices but theres nobody there
The bush is burning but the mountain is bare-Nausher

22.
Was it a promise of mine or a memory of yours
What did you lie and what did you die for
Your world is the same after as it was before -Nausher

23.
You will be the shadow of a great rock in a weary land
A covert from the tempest, rivers of water midst perennial sand
And the eyes of them that see are dim
The ears of them that hear are muffled
For those you burnt and those you forgave
Too late you’ve learnt you’re only a slave
The wind carries voices but theres nobody there
The bush is burning but the mountain is bare-Nausher

24.
Seeking stars in the night of noon
Stumble at noonday as in the night
i will give you the treasures of darkness
The hidden riches of secret places
Yet you grope for the wall like the blind
How can there be questions to some answers
All definitions lost
In the black light forever
Ecstasy is as easy as pain
Is as easy as ecstasy-Nausher

25.
To give them beauty for ashes
The oil of joy for mourning
The garment of praise for the spirit
And strangers will stand in shadows
Another life comes another season
You’re looking for the rhyme in reason
Where will this dust take you
When will your skin break you
Will your spirit come touch the stone
Of things you loved but left alone-Nausher

26.
i sought them that asked not for me
i found them that sought me not
I have spread out my hands
And walked among graves
They shall not build and another inhabit
They shall not plant and another eat
This is where i stand
Far far far from home
In the solitude of moon sands
I’ve never felt less alone-Nausher

27.
I will choose their delusions
Because when I called, none did answer
When I spoke they did not hear
They have forsaken the fountain of living waters
And hewed out broken cisterns that can hold no water
Sometimes I wish I could fly
but where can I go
Where can I hide
so my shadow wont find me
Everything I am fleeing
is right here inside me-Nausher

28.
The bellows are burned
The lead is consumed of the fire
The finger points to you
They provoke themselves to the confusion of their own faces
They fall among them that fall
The harvest is past, the winter is ended, and we are not saved
You see yourself sitting naked on the sand
A dream and a memory in each hand
You mirror a mirage moving alone
You call out and it is gone-Nausher

29.
The stock is a doctrine of vanities
The beasts are consumed, and the beast returns
I have handed the dearly beloved of my soul
Into the hands of her enemies or into the arms of lovers
Come now the beasts of the field they come to devour
They have made the wild a desolate wilderness
Here comes the shadow softly over your skin
Light shades tomorrow as yesterday begins
You sat there a while scanning the miles
Free child of beauty and a caged reptile-Nausher

30.
So it is written with a pen of iron
And with the point of a diamond
Graven upon the table of your heart
I have not sent these prophets
Yet they ran
I have not spoken
Yet they prophesied
Can I hide in secret places that they shall not see me
I search heaven and earth yet they deceive me
From the vantage of vanity
From dust to disarray to dust infinity
Mirrors won’t freeze the lines on my hand
I trace and erase my face in the sand -Nausher

31.
You heard the wings of racing shadows
You saw the colour of dancing light
You felt the rush of fire on ice
Your words embrace empty paper
The divine divided by divinity
Trapped in the madding throng
Walled in the other half of your insanity
Your dreams are all real your reality all wrong -Nausher

32.
That we may want water and fire
And be astonished by one or another
Stretch out our hands to the desolate land
More desolate than a wilderness of dreamless desire
Then the dark morning comes and the light of the mountains
Descend like doves from the sky soft like white mourning
The Word without, the famine within
The mirror’s cracked along the angles of my face
Where do i belong in it’s tangled embrace
The looking glass looks back at me in wonder
i look through the mask only to see a stranger
I peel off my skin, and enter – Nausher

33.
And we will give it in the hands of a stranger for a prey
And the strangers of the earth for a spoil
And they will pollute it with rumour
Rumour upon rumour
Every man in the chambers of his imagery
We set a mark on the foreheads of the men that sigh
Fill their hands with coals of fire
And scatter their ashes over the city
That we knew the night would pass,
That the love we lived could never last,
Reflections blurred by shadows past,
That silhouettes would still roam free
Beauty for a day, or a day of eternity – Nausher

34.
Your eyes see your own reflection
Ears listen for the sound of your echo
One built up a wall
Your shadow daubed it with mortar
And yet the wall falls
Scatters ashes in the wind
Washes the gravel away
Like white memories on dark days
They go out from one fire
And another devours them
I set my face against them
Here you are on the blue mountain
Halfway up, halfway down
Stranded and exiled, looking out to sea
Holding onto misplaced gods
And what you might have been- Nausher

35.
You were not cut off before the darkness
Neither have you covered the darkness from my face
Their voices reach you but the words are inane,
You see in their eyes your world is insane,
You wish you could fly but dreams cloud the sky,
The rain in your brain is washing them dry – Nausher

36.
Look again into the mirror
To be reminded of those barren places
All the graven images beaten into pieces
Dreams on pyres nightmares afire
All idols desolate in the white light
In the beginning there is the word

37.
Divide the waters from the waters
Divide the light from the darkness
And divide the beast from man
You laughed you are so clever
You are a walker on the waves
But your eyes are searching inwards
Seeking shadows in light caves
You saw queens give birth to lizards
And slaves give birth to slaves-Nausher

38.
For the terrible one is brought to naught
They murmur mud upon his name
The burden of the beasts plough into the land of trouble
Your strength is to sit still in shame
You lie softly now
All gussied up for the ride
Energy de-energized
Lifetimes processed
Into a single moment
Of endless finality- Nausher

39.
i sought them that asked not for me
i found them that sought me not
I have spread out my hands
And walked among graves
They shall not build and another inhabit
They shall not plant and another eat
This is where i stand
Far far far from home
In the solitude of moon sands
I’ve never felt less alone-Nausher

40.
For the terrible one is brought to naught
They murmur mud upon his name
The burden of the beasts plough into the land of trouble
Your strength is to sit still in shame
You lie softly now
All gussied up for the ride
Energy de-energized
Lifetimes processed
Into a single moment
Of endless finality- Nausher

41.
For precept must be upon precept
precept upon precept
Line upon line
Line upon line
Here a little, and there a little
That they might go and fall backward
And be broken, and snared, and taken
This is the rest wherewith you cause the weary to rest
You ran onto the proverbial sword
What have you done outliving your gods – Nausher

42.
Foxes have holes in the earth
And birds of the air have nests
Fish have rivers, rivers have oceans
But i have nowhere to lay my head
Follow me
And let the dead bury the dead.
The night is done
Gone with the wind of the first sun
Dreams on ice
Crucified twice
I want to be alone with me
A transparent layer in history-Nausher

43.
There went the sower to sow the word
Some fell in the water devoured by water
Some fell on stone scorched by the sunless sun
There the sower sows the word
The word they heard but didn’t understand
Eyes they saw but did not perceive
But i have felt the warm breath of stoney shores
Heard waves ebb and flow deep inside my veins
Heard their heart beating like it was my own
Felt them turn, retreat and return
They will still be here
Long after I am gone
And the sower will sow the word
And the word will be silence – Nausher
© NAUSHER BANAJI 2014. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED

44.
The stone which the builders rejected
Comes back in the supporting pillar
A house of god turns into a den of thieves
The sweat on your brow
Comes back as gentle rain
The tears from your eyes
Come back as a tsunami
The divine divided by divinity
Trapped in the madding throng
Walled in the other half of your insanity
Your dreams are all real your reality all wrong -Nausher

45.
The spirit is ready but the flesh is weak
The eddy whirls and the hour is bleak
Parables muddle the freezing summers
Promises on prophecies on dark waters
Straining through the ebbs you fall
Grasping a fleeting embrace
The doors are peeling off the walls
Your heart is etched on your face-Nausher

46.
This day is this scripture fulfilled in your ears
No prophet is accepted in his own country
There is no heaven and there is no hell
We walk on water with an eye on the hill
Building our memories on shifting sand
We look back to see an arid land
Waiting for the train we lie awake in bed
Dreaming of the dreams to bring back the dead- Nausher

47.
what did you go into the wilderness to see,
a reed shaken with the wind,
she played to you and you have not danced,
she mourned to you and you have not wept,
i have felt the breath of breathing stones,
heard their heart beating like it was my own,
felt their eyes looking back at me,
these rocks will still be here long after I am gone,
other eyes and other hearts
will feel their breath and hear the words I felt
and these words now ashes will linger on in their blood,
the flesh of stone, the living stone will breathe on. Nausher

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